A White Christmas

What a fun Christmas holiday we've spent!  Steve's family drove up to spend it with us and we couldn't have loved it more (well - maybe if my family had come too). :)  We hadn't seen my brother-in-law Michael since he had left on his mission to blessed England, so we were way excited to get to spend some time with him.  We settled them in and then the next day decided to give them a taste of Portland.  Ross was so kind as to be completely better by the time they came so we weren't quarantined anymore.  

That morning we had a pancake and buttermilk syrup breakfast to start my father-in-law, Don's, birthday off right and had him open his presents - we all pitched in and got him a nice juicer and Claudia put all his mission pictures on a CD so he can print them.  We headed to Voodoo Donuts afterwards to continue the holiday stuffing of ourselves and to sample their delights.  Everyone was quite impressed and we made sure to get the maple bacon donut it's famous for.  I got my regular blueberry cake donut and tried an oreo one which I very much approve of now.  To make the Oregon/Portland experience real - it was quite drizzly for us.  Ross did NOT like being stuffed in a puffy winter coat and a stroller one bit.  Grandpa was so nice as to take him back to the car and play with him while we took the rest of the fam to the last Saturday's Market of the year.  It was super fun to see all the booths and handmade items.  I was totally sold on this one booth with an amazing baby sling that seemed to do everything but change the baby's diaper - sadly - as with most amazing craft booths - it cost an arm and a leg so I had to refrain.  Oh well.  Ross then went to see Santa Claus of course - it didn't turn out quite like last year.  He's over the shock now of Santa and more into the scared mode.

The Siblings going for a run before we stuffed ourselves with pancakes!

Portlanding! 

Voodoo Donutting - in the rain - yum!

Meghan approves. ;)

Enjoying the Saturday's Market...a little too much.

At the river.

It was snowing inside the mall!

Maybe if Santa had had a McQueen car or Mater in his hand - Ross might have felt differently about him.  He wouldn't let go of me!

I guess we put him through enough suffering - poor thing.

We finished off Don's birthday by going to Sweet Tomatoes and stuffing ourselves one more time before heading home.  We even had to save his birthday apple pie for another day.

Sunday we enjoyed church and relaxing together.  Steve and his brothers finally taught me how to play Risk - to their own destruction.  Steve and Thomas were nice to help me a long with some tips and advice at first, but when I started to dominate all of Middle Earth (It was the Lord of the Rings version) they backed out and started to plot my demise.  However, Michael's armies were hanging in the balance and he took it upon himself to be my mentor after that.  So - in essence - they all created a monster who could not be beaten.  That, and I told them after midnight I didn't care anymore and was going to bed since I was 37 weeks pregnant.  Gotta love playing that card.  They all seceded which left me the Risk Champion of 2012. :)  Really - I took all their brains and used them to my advantage.  Go me!  In honor of Michael being home from blessed England we watched the King's Speech which I had edited which basically made it a PG movie after you take out some of the language in two scenes.  We had a great day.

Sunday is a serious day of rest. :)

For everyone but Ross that is...

Our sweet game of Risk - note the green everywhere on the board - yes - that was me!

Auntie Meghan and Ross did some puddle jumping.

Grandpa thoroughly enjoyed rocking his grandson to sleep...and the grandson enjoyed rocking Grandpa to sleep. :)

Some serious relaxation here.

 Christmas Eve was spent doing some shopping for our turkey dinner (by my in-laws - I was so mean putting them to work!  That included having them take Ross with them) while I wrapped presents and Steve and his siblings went to buy tickets for Les Miserables the next day.  We then went to see the Hobbit - which was fabulous while Grams and Gramps tended Ross and basically cooked our nice turkey dinner!  Maybe I'm playing this pregnancy card a little too much?  Although - I think they enjoyed spending time with their grandson.  That's what grandparents are for right?  

We had a great dinner and a lovely devotional afterwards about Christ's birth and memorable Christmases.  We opened one present each and then headed off to bed.

And we're doing the movie bit!  Hobbit and Les Miserables - in two days!

Merry Christmas!!

In my nesting mode I've been in - I whipped up these babies in time for Christmas - Ruby did a no show though.  Guess we'll have to save hers for next year. :)

Christmas morning was super fun.  I think it was the latest we've ever had Christmas!  Ross slept in till 8:30 and so did the rest of us.  We definitely loved having this Christmas with Ross.  Though he still doesn't understand Santa - he definitely understood presents. :) Whenever he would unwrap a present he would chant about what it was (e.g. a book about trucks - "Truck! Truck! Truck!") and then if it was in a box or something he would hand it to one of us directly and command "Open!" "Open!"  It went really well with taking turns opening presents so he had a chance to play with one of his before opening another one.  Grandpa and Grandma Staheli gave him an adorable Noah's Ark that he loved, a BYU outfit, some truck books, and other goodies.  Uncle Dallas and Aunt Janae gave him some trucks and a snow hat and mittens that were so cute too.  Great Grandma Staheli gave him a nice little wooden train set, and Grandpa and Grandma White gave him a firetruck that hasn't left his side.  He was very impatient to get that thing out of its box.  Claudia also got him some Batman PJs with a cute black cape she made him to go with it.  That comes from a hilarious story back when Steve was little.  She had made him a batman cape and he was running around wearing it.  When she called "Stephen!" to go do something he turned to her and said "I'm not Stephen - I'm batman!" which was totally adorable. :)  Now Ross can relive it!  Uncle Thomas got him a Lightning McQueen which may be glued to his hand as well.  Anything with Cars is an instant hit!  Santa brought him a tractor pop up tent that folds down a flap to that has roads and buildings all over it.  Ross loves playing with his toys in there.

Ross woke up wanting to watch Cars (figures).  He hadn't even turned his head to see the present yet.

It's starting to dawn on Ross.  Nice face Steve. :)

This would be me at 37 weeks.  You'd think Ruby would want to come out by now!

Ross getting into opening presents.

The truck books were a total hit - thanks Grandpa and Grandma Staheli!

Steve might borrow Ross's snow hat.  Ross is taking a drinking break.

And he opened a firetruck!  Look at his face!  Guess what he's saying to me?

"Open!" "Open!" He's being very helpful here too. :)

Playing with the firetruck in his tractor tent - heaven. :) 

Another drink break.

Thom the camera man.

Michael excited for presents. ;)

Meghan too! ;)

Me getting some sweet piano music!  Woot woot!

Playing with Meghan's awesome gift to us - the human body!  She REALLY wanted to play too. ;)

Don got Claudia an iPad - now they're twinners! :)

A nice bum picture - from us to you! ;) 

Please note - we had all just woken up.  Here are the traditional Christmas pajama pants - thanks to the nesting instinct!

Ross also got a vacuum from us since he LOVES it when we vacuum.  We decided to make him do the cleaning up. ;)

We had a great Christmas as well.  I got Steve a Harry Potter trivia board game which has SUPER hard questions, a new water bottle (since Ross demolishes ours), some movies (The Dark Knight Rises of course), and a nice watch to use as a PT.  My parents got him some nice exercise bands and a nice reflex hammer.  Our sister-in-law, Becca, made him a sweet BYU quillow and Ruby a gorgeous little quilt and hat.  I got piano music, double stuffed oreos (heaven! - and hilarious since I got Stephen them as well), some movies, and Settlers of Catan from Steve.  We also got a fun FHE packet and objects and a beautiful hardback copy of The Book of Mormon.  It was a fun Christmas all around.  Thank-you for all the gifts and thoughtfulness to everyone!  We skyped with my family that morning, and I was so sad not to be with them this year.  For sure next year though! 

Playing some Harry Potter trivia!

We played some games and went to Cinetopia to see Les Miserables.  I just finished the abridged book of Les Mis and now want to read the unabridged.  The movie was wonderful - different than the musical, but I was very satisfied with how they did.  I just LOVE the story all around.  It's so moving and deep.  I - of course - cried through it.  Everyone should read the book.  
For Boxing Day we headed to the Aviation Museum exploring the airplanes and spaceships.  Ross loved it again, and everyone was quite impressed.  I watched more of the films they were showing about the different planes.  That night we watched Sherlock Holmes, and I convinced them all to stay for one more day (okay maybe it was the bad weather they would have been driving in and the fact that Don had gotten a cold that sealed the deal - but I'll still take credit). :) 

Gorgeous Megs!

What a nice, proper looking set of siblings...

Ross was all about running around the HUGE museum. 

Which one is Thomas?

Ross thought the pole was really fun to swing around on...a little pole dancing here?  Oh my!

Ross really wanted to push dad around on the airplane instead of get on one.

Very cool

Don learning to fly.

I think Meghan might be presenting this helicopter to us, Steve is trying to catch a ride, Claudia is waving hello, Thomas is being a mime, and I think Michael may be trying to seduce the camera...maybe?

I'm not sure we'll ever get everyone to be straight faced in a picture. :)

I pretty much followed Ross around like this.  He was content, and I was content.

Ross saw Steve taking this picture.  Ross is saying "Hold you!" right now to him.

Cute little boy on a cute little plane. :)

Helping uncle Thomas steer the helicopter.

Yeah - I have no words for this picture. :)

Ready for take off.

Of COURSE Meghan knows how to fly this thing.

Family pic!

The Spruce Goose - pretty sweet.

The last day of the White Christmassing was spent indulging in Oregon's best kept secret - ultimate thrifting!  I took everyone to the Goodwill Bins - which is basically a step up from dumpster diving. :)  We all found some GREAT stuff including a Mister Rogers t-shirt, Ninja Turtles t-shirt, some ABC and 123 foam puzzles, golf clubs, and some great clothes.  I, of course, couldn't pass up the cute girl clothes I found and boy ones for Ross.  The best part is realizing an item you got probably cost about 25 cents.  Fabulous.  Right after that we headed to another Thrifting joint - Thrift City - which was 50% off that day too.  Michael found five pairs of shorts, and Claudia got Ross another McQueen car which is strapped to his other hand now.  I wonder how that kid is going to eat with all his toys he doesn't let out of his sight or hands.  To finish off the ultimate thrifting I found and bought a gorgeous white dresser to put Ruby's clothes in for $30 off of craigslist!  Woot woot!  It was a definite steal.  
That night Steve and I and his brothers went to the temple (much needed) and ended the day on a high note.

Ross was really good at saying everyone's name.  Meghan was his big time fan club. :)

Enjoying some trucks and Auntie time.

Note how there is a McQueen in each hand while he wears his firetruck pjs from Grammy Joanne.

 Thomas was training Ross in this video - note the distribution of candy here as a reward. :)

Ross thought this was hilarious...and you gotta love his laugh. :)

Ross even convinced Grandpa to come play in the tractor tent!

  
We were so sad to see his family go.  We all had such a nice Christmas.  Ross misses them like crazy.  He LOVES an audience and having so many people who want to play with him.  We don't quite know what to do with ourselves now.   Maybe Ruby will show up soon to mix it all up again. :)  I am DEFINITELY about ready for that to happen.  She is more than welcome to come a little early. :)  
Anyway - Merry Christmas!
       

New Zealand Nativity

A friend told me about this little presentation of the Nativity that a church in New Zealand did.  Ross LOVES it.  He wants to watch it again and again and again.  It's quite sweet, spiritually educational, and fun.  :)  Merry Christmas!

 

Early Christmas Presents and Christmas Ships

Well Ross thought his gift to us last year was so good he just couldn't wait to give it to us this year - so we got an early Christmas present...the flu!  Poor thing had a fever for almost 3 days and couldn't keep anything down the first day.  BLAH.  He lived off of juice, popsicles, water, and crackers for a while and is just barely starting to get his appetite back.  

Steve is SUCH a good dad.

It snowed the day Ross got sick!  We couldn't even go out an enjoy it!  It had actually snowed more, but it melted a bit too fast.

Watching Cars for the umpteenth time.

Steve was a star and slept in the rocking chair with him the first night while he had his episodes of throwing up.  Mom made appearances to clean up the after effects each time.  Having three terrible nights' sleep has reminded me how not excited I am to be getting up with a newborn multiple times - though this time I'm sure those times will pass eventually.  The first time around with Ross I didn't believe anyone that I would ever get normal sleep again.  
Ross was babied and spoiled for three days...and seemed to think that was the way life should be from then on.  He was allowed to watch Cars at least four times all within three days, eat his food on the couch, take as many baths as he wanted, and be held whenever he wanted.  Now I think he's just milking it in desperation for the last few weeks of him being our only child.  Personally I'd prefer his want for pancakes at 6:30 in the morning rather than him being sick for three days like this.  
We had a lot of plans for this Christmas break - we had even written out a schedule for everything we were going to do and arranged for a babysitter so we could go see the Hobbit with our friends.  Sick children seem to throw all of that out the window.  Instead we really haven't known what day it's been and have taken turns keeping Ross entertained through his misery.  
Tonight we were going stir crazy and decided to do at least one of the things we had planned on doing so we ventured out to Portland.
We attempted to see the Christmas Ships that sail around the Columbia and Willamette River.  We got there and saw the few they had - which were very fun.  Ross was entertained for about two minutes and couldn't decide what he wanted after that and was quite upset about it.  As we left - quite early - Steve and I decided to console ourselves with a VooDoo doughnut.  Their blueberry cake doughnuts are the best - so we got two and an extra each for good measure (which we had immediate eater's remorse once they were eaten - but at the time they were delicious!).  Merry Christmas! :)  

The Christmas Ships Parade!

Ross hanging in there for us.

Family pic! I'm just about 37 weeks with Ruby...she is SO welcome to come anytime after Christmas. :)  P.S.  My husband is a handsome devil!

A fun whale

Ross's favorite was the firetruck ship!

A Plane

Santa in his sleigh

This was before he was sick - enjoying a nice green smoothie

Sweet boy!

Shrinky Dinks and 12-12-12

I felt I should document this momentous day of 12-12-12.  I didn't do it for my birthday last year for 11-11-11 on the actual day - so here's to making up for it.  
To celebrate 12-12-12 Ross just was too excited to stay asleep - so 5:30 was when he decided to wake everyone up.  He was freezing when I checked on him so I snuggled him up in his blanket with me in the rocking chair (since I'm almost 36 weeks along and practically a walking furnace) and he warmed up pretty quick and went back to sleep.  The only problem was that I couldn't get him to stay asleep in his bed - the little stinker.
We celebrated some more with green smoothies and eggo waffles - I worked so hard on those waffles. :)  Poor Steve celebrated by taking two finals today and studying his brains out for his last one that's tomorrow.  Not the most favorite way of celebrating - but hey - to each their own.  
Ross let me celebrate by him taking an over 3 hour nap later on - hallelujah!  I took that time to take a nap myself (I'll remind you I'm almost 36 weeks along...and being the ripe old age of 29 as well - this body has some wear and tear).  
Anyway - we had a decent rest of the day.  Ross was quite pleasant and we took Christmas gifts around to our neighbors and friends (sporting my new Phil and Ted stroller of course). :)  We finished off our celebrations by having cereal for dinner (I get the awesome mom award for that one - I'm sure Ross at least thinks so since he LOVES cereal).  Don't worry - we had some fruit and other somewhat healthy sides.  

Happy 12-12-12!

Ross isn't so much into posing for the camera anymore - he just wants to look at the pictures.

Trying to get at the camera.

Just out of reach!

Caught before he could move!

Playing with the nativity - note the safari animals attending.

CUTE face.

On a side note - we made some shrinky dink ornaments on Sunday for our Family Night activity which was SUPER fun.  I highly recommend them - and will be a great tradition for our family.  Steve did them as a kid, and turned into a kid all over again when we did them together.  Oh how I love that man.  
Anyway - Happy 12-12-12!  I wish you all a dozen of whatever your hearts desire!

Shrinky Dinks!

Drawing and coloring the ornaments.

Our pre-baked finished artwork.  Steve has become somewhat delusional from all his studying for finals...see if you can notice what's wrong with his ornament. :)

Ross loved the hole punch that came with the kit.  We had to borrow it to actually punch the holes in the ornaments...the tears show how unhappy he was with that - he soon got it back though.

Watching them bake was pretty fun - they fold, bend and twist while they shrink all within a couple minutes.  Sweet!

The camera might be cooler than the oven though.

Our finished products! 

     

Life As We Know It Right Now, Christmas Prep, and a Possible Nesting Bout

Well after Thanksgiving I get super excited for Christmas, so decorations go right up and Christmas music becomes the new norm.  I don't decorate before Thanksgiving - because, in my opinion, it's a bit of a cop out for Thanksgiving, but I can't say I haven't listened to Christmas music before Thanksgiving either.  It was on my mission in Nottingham, England with a favorite companion of mine - Sis. Cotter - that we both got what we like to label "the plague" - how fitting for England right?  We got miserably sick for about 5 days straight, and when you're on a mission and don't have any TV or movies to distract you from your misery - you only have your music (which you're already sick of anyway because nine cds only can last so long before you go crazy).  Anyway - I had always been rigid in not listening to Christmas music until Thanksgiving was over, but it being the middle of November and me ready to pull my hair out from being sick, bored, and SO over the music we had, I relented.  To make a long story short, we did eventually get better, and we avoided insanity by enjoying some Christmas tunes.  Since then I haven't minded Christmas music in November, and even this year pulled it out about a week before Thanksgiving - go ahead - judge me all you want - I can take it.

SO - to ring in the Christmas season, we explored around for a Christmas tree, decorated the house, and went to the festive Forest Grove Lights Parade on December 1st.  All of it very fitting for getting us in the mood of Christmas.  
As for the tree, we dragged our temporarily bachelorized friend Jed (who's wife was visiting family) with us to check out a U-cut tree farm.   He was nice enough to pretty much entertain Ross while we trekked up and down the hill looking for a tree. Being in Oregon - it gets dark pretty quick these days in the north - and by the time we got to the place, light faded fast, and the prices weren't our favorite (though they trump Utah tree prices by a landslide - a benefit of living in FOREST Grove where you don't have to water your trees).  We decided to delay and go another day.  In the end we went to a tree lot and got a grand fir tree which smells divine!  We still have yet to decorate it since Steve is on the brink of insanity with finals preparations, but I'll post pictures once it's done.

Hunting for the tree...blurry style - and no we didn't find one here.  Did you know most tree farms have to trim their trees down a ton since they apparently grow too fast here?

Jed and Ross - trying to go without the flash.

Steve's classmates threw me a baby shower since we're having a girl - it was super nice and they were so generous.  We'll have one WELL dressed little girl for sure. :)  Ross LOVED the balloons - and loved how they glowed next to the lights.

The Lights Parade was the epitome of Oregon - complete with a down pour of rain.  That doesn't scare Oregonians away though - no no - you don't even need a raincoat in these parts.  I suppose the rain here is like the air you breathe - you don't really notice it all around you and life goes on.  Ross thoroughly LOVED the light parades - particularly since there were big trucks and tractors all decked out.  He was wearing his winter coat and looked JUST like he did last year - a little chubby puff ball.  We all got a bit soaked, but loved it all the same.

Transfixed on the light parade.

Ross's dream come true - big trucks decked out in lights!

They had lots of these trailers with people waving from them.  I was a bit confused why none of them caroled though...I mean really?  It's Christmas!  We did have cheerleaders and dancers performing in the rain...though not to Christmas music.

Ross wouldn't look at the camera for anything.  We were quite impressed with how all the parade people weren't phased by the rain at all.

Ross kept saying "again!" after this truck passed...like we could rewind it for him.  Too bad we don't have that super power - only at home with the TV when he wants to watch the tractor part on the movie Cars over and over.

I think my favorite parts of the parade were the rest home mobiles that drove by - the windows were all tinted with all the old folk inside...not waving - probably just staring at everyone on the sidewalks.  this was the best pic we could take in the rain.  Hilarious though!

Ross is growing like crazy - last week he got about 5 teeth come in and since then has had a much bigger appetite.  Hot dogs are his new favorite thing (thankfully I can still get him to eat veggie burgers, green smoothies, and plenty of fruit to make up for the not-so-good food he loves that I let him have every so often).  Whenever Steve is at home in the mornings, Ross gets extremely possessive of him...to the point of having to share bowls of oatmeal and sit close together.  That kid sure loves his dad. :)

Daddy's oatmeal is always better than you're own.

Ross keeping close tabs on dad so he doesn't skip out to school or anything.

Enjoying...or had been enjoying - some yogurt.

We have lights on our tree - but that's it right now.  Ross has been doing pretty well leaving the tree alone - he likes when we give it drinks and turn on the lights though - let's hope decorating it won't ruin it!

Steve has taught Ross how to "sleep" complete with snoring.  Here they are practicing.  Ross is really good at it. ;)

No Ross isn't really sleeping...just trying to "wake up!" now.

He is VERY good at saying please and thank-you.  The idea of patience in between those has yet to come, but he says them nonetheless.  I can't help myself from laughing whenever he's playing with a friend and snatches their toy saying "Tank you!" in a very happy voice just like Steve and I do to him when he does something we like...then we have the conversation that you can't just take kids toys even if you say thank-you in the happiest way possible.  Still funny though.  
We've been singing Christmas songs to Ross lots.  His favorites are Deck the Halls - since every time I get to the fa la la la las - I tell him to do it, and he says "la la" back to me each time - as well as Jingle Bells since he gets to shout "Hey!" after the sleigh parts.  He'll chant "again!" endlessly every time.  If you start to sing another Christmas song - he'll stop you cold turkey with "all done!"  
He still obsesses over trucks, tractors, planes, trains, and cars.  We always have to "dig" and "dump".  If you're acting sad he'll also give you a big hug and tell you you're "happy!" again.  LOVE that boy.  He still loves to help everywhere around the house.  Tonight he helped make chocolate chip cookies - all the dumpings of ingredients were his job.  Emptying the dishwasher is a piece of cake now too.
Yesterday morning we realized that Ross might be sensing his days of only childness are coming to an end.  He woke up continuously in the night and then decided at 6:30 that morning he was "hungee" for "lunch" (which is what he thinks all eating times are apparently) and wanted "pancakes" for breakfast.  Still being parents to an only child, we gave in - and all had a delicious breakfast and Ross was happy.  I think I'll always remember that morning with him.  Even if he's a stinker - he's just too precious.  
He tries to distract us from bedtime by pleading for more books and stories or wanting to play blocks, or needing a thousand drinks before he goes to sleep.  Whenever he's doing something big, holding something big, eating a big bite, or seeing something big - he always proclaims "A BIG!..." and finishes it with whatever he's referring to.  You have to imagine it with him attempting to make his voice big too - low and loud.  HILARIOUS.  
I have lately gotten a bit of a nesting bug going on/sleeping bug.  I alternate between wanting to do projects (recover a glider, make a Christmas tree skirt, put together Christmas cards, make Christmas PJ pants, find a dresser for the baby, etc. etc. etc.) or organize and collapsing asleep on the couch when Ross goes down for his nap.  I'm 35 weeks along...which is CRAZY.  Little Ruby is just growing like a Christmas tree in Oregon (they grow quite fast you know) and rolling and poking around all the time.  Have I mentioned how I love feeling the baby move when I'm pregnant.  It's really my favorite thing.  I'm proud to say I'm still exercising twice a week thanks to my friend Kim who swaps babysitting with me, and I'm trying not to let my sweet tooth I've redeveloped get the best of me.  

So I FINALLY joined the Phil and Ted stroller club!  We found one for a great deal on Craigslist from a nice family who have three kids now.  I'm in love and heaven all at the same time.  Steve was super impressed with it too. Ross, as you can see, think it's pretty sweet too.  Don't get me started on why this stroller is so cool - I'll just say it's a double stroller with the ease of pushing one - and having multiple positions the seats can go in according to how old your two kids are. :)

 So in the picture below is a glider a friend gave me since they were moving...and in my nesting obsession I ventured to recover it.  I've never done something like that, but the nestingness took over.  I'll post pictures later.  I'm quite pleased with myself to be honest. :)

I wanted to see if our rain cover would work for the stroller, and after I got out the stroller - this kid wanted to get in and KEEP the rain cover on it...then he told me to "go!"  We did a few laps around our kitchen and family room until he wanted to go outside.  We tested it out in the rain - and we still love it.  I love that Ross likes it too.  Woot woot!

If you look behind Ross there's another seat there for a second kid. :)  Also -you can take that second seat out and use it for the front while lowering the other one to be a little flat bed for a newborn.  Absolutely brilliant.  It folds up nice and flat too - which is great for our little car.

Steve is just studying away looking forward to this time next week when he can relax and enjoy the holidays with us.  We were talking and he told me how school has been turning him into a hypochondriac - which is hilarious and half true.  I get text messages from him  a few times a week with warnings/reminders/demands of things to do/not do/avoid/not let Ross do/check Ross for, etc. after he learns them in class.  He also starts having "symptoms" too.  His professor joked to him how after you're done with school, you seem to get more healthy. :)  Steve continues to balance his time well and give in to Ross and my pleadings for attention too.  He works so hard and we love him so much!

Now to just get through the next week of half single parenting and Steve getting through his finals.  We can do it! :)